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Writing a journal seems to be a great solution for all the little things that seem to pick and bite and itch at me relentlessly. This habit of smoking on something has become a bittersweet sigh of relief especially after a busy day.

Tasks seem stressful when I'm not high and the anxiety comes full force because i've smoked on a daily for so long normal mode sober tasks push me to full out panic mode with my hyper forgetfulness and memory loss (slow reaction; limited). In a way it feels like I've lost my super powers. My spirit is recovering like a puzzle with just the edge pieces hollowing out the frame, but I can still feel the sparks of joy and I am hoping and praying that I can find humility in recovery to change what I know is for the better.