I was sober for 4 years and a few months then went back to drinking hard for about 5 months before I quit, again. In those 4 years I didn't do anything different except stop drinking, which was a good thing only it wasn't enough to stay sober. Now I am making a lot of behavioral changes and I feel more confident and better than ever in my sobriety. I hope you are able to take the first step and stop drinking. The choice is yours and that is very powerful.