I over-analyze and subconsciously find excuses to drink when I'm not in a bad place. I know I'm not a 'normie', and I don't want to be, but my AV tells me I want to be. I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say... Probably trying to make the process easier than it is. I'm caring about my life and future more than ever at the moment, so...
Maybe it's like a Nike commercial for me at this point.