Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Hi hadmyshare
instead of thinking of failure and beating yourself up - look at the positives - you can get sober - you just need to learn how to stay that way.
Maybe you need more support, or you need to learn how to use the support you have more effectively?
Maybe you need to make more changes in your life - changes that reflect your sincere desire to be sober?
Maybe you need to accept that recovery is an ongoing thing and for a while you're going to have to make a continued conscious effort and not let yourself get complacent?
learn from this - make Recovery 2.0 the one that sticks
D
I'm trying. This is the worst. I hate this. I hate that it's getting worse and worse. When I fall down now I keep falling harder and harder.
I don't even enjoy it at all. I enjoy being sober so much more than being drunk.
It's a knife edge. The tiniest bit triggers a huge binge