Thank you so much.
It's... vey hard when you're forced into being in situations that mess with your recovery. I'd been doing so well (and I mean by YEARS which now to me sounds insane that I could last so long) but as soon as I moved in with my mother it's hard to focus on myself or any possibility of a future. I know a lot of advice is about dealing with yourself and letting go of the negative emotions but she makes very clear that I live "for her" and I know don't have the economic capacity to get out of it.