Thank you, for all of the encouragement. It was exactly what I needed to hear. He knows how to manipulate me but I've come to far to give him the power to do so. Do I wish he had spend this time working on himself? I do, but he hasn't. That is fact. I can't help him, I left knowing I put it all on the table on HE made the choice not to help himself.
He is sick, and he chooses to stay there. I'm sick too in the way codepency mirrors his addiction that is so perfectly put. I have stability now, something he could not offer me. I clearly have more work to do on myself in the way that my self esteem is clearly so low that I allow myself to be manipulated by him.
Thank you for all the positivity, I needed to hear I'm doing the right thing. Mostly, Needed to be reminded that we both have choices. He can choose to get well and he hasn't... that's on him not on me. I can only make choices for myself.