Welcome, Bebe - it's great to have you here.
My experience was very much like Dee's. I thought all the excitement would go out of my life. Yet if I was honest, it was becoming a dangerous & reckless thing to do. My personality changed greatly every time it was in my system. I can't even believe some of the things I did - I guarantee the drunk me doesn't even resemble the sober me. I was taking chances with my life & hurting people I loved. I was a little resentful in the early days of being sober - but I learned to love the freedom of my new life. It feels wonderful to be free. Be patient with yourself as you heal - you will get there.