Hi and welcome Bebe
None of us would be here if we thought we lost out on the sobriety deal - it will get better
I obsessed about not drinking as much as I used to about drinking for a while, but that settled down
I also worried my life would be no fun, joyless, no friends and boring...and while a lot of my old way of life had to change, ultimately its been for the better.
I'm having the best time of my life now, sober
Things started getting better for me around the 2-3 month mark.
Support really helps - its important to know we're not alone in this, and that things will turn out ok