Originally Posted by
least 
I was an alky and knew of the pain I was causing my kids, but I handled it by not handling it. I drank more to block it out.
I wasn't trying to make them unhappy, but I was so unhappy I couldn't do unto others what I couldn't do for myself.
Thanks, least. I often wonder if my husband (separated) has any idea how much anxiety and pain this causes my girls. Before starting the pills, he was a good dad and involved in fun things with them, even though he drank excessively. As time has gone on, he seems to have gotten more comfortable with not spending time with them, or showing up really late when he does, to the point that my 14 year old doesn't want to see him. She constantly asks why I am being nice to him when he is "crappy" to me. So, I'm guessing he does know it, even though he doesn't acknowledge it.