Originally Posted by Gottalife

I had all those reasons when I was drinking, except for the junk food thing. Eating interfered with my drinking, so I didn't eat.

The thing is I had all those reasons clearly in mind in the morning as very good reasons why I was not going to drink that day.

But by that afternoon, I had changed my mind. The memory of the misery was all but gone, and the previous dramas did not flood into my mind to protect me.

I learnt that my memory was faulty and could not provide a reliable defense against the fatal first drink. The reasons were still applicable. I just lacked the power to benefit from them. The problem was solved when I began to seek a greater power. After that, the memory was not needed, it just never occurred to me to drink.