Bender

Hello,

I joined this forum many years back after my first recovery program (an evening OP at the "request" of my wife) which I didn't last too long after (well a little over a year). The program was kind of a joke and I really wasn't done drinking yet. I finished another program a couple months ago (this time a PHP of my own will, or what little I had left in me) and got my 90 days a couple days ago. This is my third shot at it. Had over 4 years in my 20s, lasted a year in my 30s and am hoping I am done in my 40s. I just wanted to say hello and not just lurk around. I've been going to meetings every day. Sometimes 2 or 3. I can honestly say today I am done. Hopefully tomorrow I am done as well. It has been a tough road and dealing with the realities of life and the wreckage I created for myself has been a challenge but life has been a lot easier when taking it one day at a time. I think the hardest thing to deal with has been watching the people I went through treatment with go out. People with such resolve to quit one day and within a couple days after they get out are back at it. It's hard to stay in the middle of the herd when the wolves have already picked most of them off. So I found a new herd and life goes on and maybe one day I will see them again. Anyway, I am glad to be sober and appreciate this forum being there for me when I need a reminder of what it was like and what it could be like (for better or for worse).