Originally Posted by
berryblue 
This might be the wrong forum for this post but I joined yesterday so I still feel like a newcomer
I want to drink. This is Day 3. I wish I could bottle the feelings I have when I am hungover/detoxing so I can open it up and know exactly why I am quitting but I can’t so instead, here are the reasons I don’t want to drink:
- The utter despair and sadness I feel after a binge. Can’t stop crying for days until I drink again, starting the cycle all over again.
- The restless sleep and nightmares for 3-4 nights after my binge.
- Having to check all my methods of messaging to see who I talked to the night before and what I said.
- The calories from the booze and crappy food I eat while drunk and the few days of being hungover. My diet suffers for days.
- Dehydration. Dry scaly hands.
- Yet my skin is still breaking out.
- Laziness.
- Shame.
What are your reasons for not drinking?
At some point when I am feeling positive I will list out the pros of not drinking but I’m not feeling positive right now. Feel free to add those too though!
I had all those reasons when I was drinking, except for the junk food thing. Eating interfered with my drinking, so I didn't eat.
The thing is I had all those reasons clearly in mind in the morning as very good reasons why I was not going to drink that day.
But by that afternoon, I had changed my mind. The memory of the misery was all but gone, and the previous dramas did not flood into my mind to protect me.
I learnt that my memory was faulty and could not provide a reliable defense against the fatal first drink. The reasons were still applicable. I just lacked the power to benefit from them. The problem was solved when I began to seek a greater power. After that, the memory was not needed, it just never occurred to me to drink.