I want to thank both of you for your kind responses. They really, truly mean a great deal to me. I am so thankful I began this journey with this community at my side.
You are both, of course, right on all counts. I'm feeling a bit better this morning. Can't say I feel like doing much, but i'm totally OK with that. I want to just reflect on the simply incredible fact that i'm entering the third decade of my life, SOBER. Completely, truly, 100% sober.