Welcome! Glad you came to SR and that you shared.
Alcoholism - or alcohol dependence, or whatever you might want to call some kind of unhealthy/controlling relationship you have with alcohol- comes in all different shapes and sizes. The things you mention are flags in line with questions like - is alcohol having a good or bad impact on my life, thoughts, emotions, behavior, etc? Do I worry about it? Etc....some of the things leading up to "has my life become unmanageable? can I stop drinking once I start?" and such- questions many of us lost a LOT before we answered honestly.
Take care - read around here- and don't worry about offending anyone- some responses might end up seeming "harsh" to you but this is a community that wants to support everyone, and see everyone live their own best, healthy - and usually, that means sober- lives.