Welcome to SR gd35479 and happy birthday
I can't seem to stop thinking about the days when I could drink a couple of glasses of wine with my wife and beer with my friends.
For me I had to accept that was no longer possible, if indeed it ever was.
Rather than a loss tho, it turned out to be a great freedom - I love my life and I love who I am now - I can look myself in the mirror again.
It's a great life
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