Originally Posted by
nez 
You are spending a lot of time and effort projecting into the past and future. Meanwhile life is taking place right here, right now. There is nothing bad about making plans, just don't plan outcomes... and it sounds like you are planning lots of those.
Go ahead and make plans, but let go of outcomes and return fully to the present moment When the future does finally show up as the present moment, adjust your plans accordingly and once again, let go of outcomes and return fully to the present moment.
Repeat as needed. :~)
Thanks. Very sound advice it's just really hard right now to step back and put everything into perspective. I know I'm being selfish. Some days are good. Some days are miserable. Its difficult because a month ago she's telling me she loves me and always will. Now, I can only hear her voice in my head as memories. Its just such a hard time right now. I write a lot. I cry. I clean. Lol. I just want to hear her tell me she loves me and still wants me.