Thanks everyone ,I am waiting for adaction to give me an appointment at, really hope it won't be much longer. I'm determined not to drink it's the panuc and anxiety that I'm riddled with that not used to dealing with without a drink and with the stress of a breakup I just feel so weak ,like I don't even no myself . I'm scared of the symptoms of the alcohol withdrawal they seem to go up and down down down ,and because I am now having to face being alone I'm quite honestly terrified . I haven't been able to sleep much or eat not through trying because of all this so I no that's not helping me . But I will try and be more positive I'm just truly heartbroken atm and I've no one to blame but myself . I will do the writing ,sorry I can't remember all your names but thank you all for your response Xx