leanabeana, it's going to get better. I had a lot of anxiety in early days, too. I spent all day every day on these forums many times.
It gets better. Not right away, but soon. Hang on. Even the bipolar thing *may* turn out to be completely drinking related.
Stick with us and keep reading and posting. There is an Anxiety subforum too. I really like the sticky posts at the top of the anxiety forums, especially this one:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...anagement.html