I have no idea what you do, but perhaps you should consider doing something else, if doing it well, depends on you drinking.....that's a pretty high price to pay in my opinion.
Take a close look at this 20 page evaluation and see if there are things that sobriety allows you to do better? For example, I have much more focus and am less rattled when nervous, then when I drank. I listen better, hence, form better responses.