Day 9 and going on holiday
Hi Everyone,
I just thought I would check in this morning. Day 9 now sober. It seems to be OK though once it hits 5pm I'm stuggling with the 'AV' gremlin in my head. I have started speaking to him though and suggesting he vacate the premises! It's incredible how subtle that voice can be. I spent a while yesterday thinking about the other drugs I used to do in my 20's and maybe it would be Ok to do a bit of that every now and again, y'a know, just for fun?! Lucking I know that is all bull but it freaked me out that in stopping one thing that gremlin is popping up suggesting other things.
I'm heading on a holiday to visit family today (the timing feels awful). Here in Scotland everyone drinks and most gatherings involve drinking. I can't cancel as I would let so many people down. I'm tempted just to out myself and say 'I'm an alcoholic and I don't drink' but I'm not sure I have the courage yet. I think a lot of walking and early nights. Any tips on handling this would be very much appreciated. Gabe