my thought:
the answer to why you drank again is in a previous post of yours:
"Will give it serious consideration."
a recovery plan isnt something to sit back and consider.
imo, the reason you bought booze is because you havent decided to want to be sober more than you want to drink.
considering a recovery plan/program kind of says that,eh?
" I just get this overwhelming feeling that I have to "stock up" in case I runout. Does any one else have experiences like this ? "
thats the mental obsession