Smile.....in the end, you are the one who is entitled to decide the kind of life th at you want. What you want to live with, and what you can't or don't want to live with.
Your happiness is just as important as anyone else's.
We were put on this Earth to thrive...not just exist.....
It is totally o.k. to leave any relationship that you don't want to be in for any reason.
You seem to want to stay for now...? but, over time you might change your mind...and, if you do, that is your privilege.....