Might be time to get back to those meetings and get some phone numbers - start building up a sober network and start learning to live a sober lifestyle rather than try to do your old life style just minus the booze. That is just too hard. Why put yourself through it?
You say you were going to meetings before. Meetings are one third of the suggested program of recovery. Why not commit to using the whole thing for a while and see what happens. In How It Works it says the it works for people who 'thoroughly' follow that path.
Perhaps you want to try something different this time and that's fine as well. But whatever you try its likely to require a full effort if you want full results, so go for it. You deserve a happy sober life.
Glad you posted. I wish you sobriety and recovery, serenity and inner peace.
BB