Iam 53. 2 years ago because of booze- I literally burnt to death. Then I was wrtten off as having Korsakof's. Then my family abandoned me- for a time I was homeless. I have major depression and PTSD from the burns. I am sober and safe. Yes you can do it. Yes- you can. Go to a meeting, talk to a priest, go to a women's health clinic, see a doc, a counsellor, post here until your fingers bleed. Yes you can do it. There is hope. You posted here- that means you want to heal.