Originally Posted by
tomsteve 
is it your mind has a weakness to mind altering substances or underlying issues have a weakness to being sober?
That's a very good question. A very good one. You have really made me think here. If I will be entirely honest with myself - I would say it is the latter. I would say my underlying issues are averse to the thought of sobriety. I've only been drinking heavily since 2015.
Before, I RARELY drank. I could go a year without booze and wouldn't care. When I was in my late teens, I worked part-time as a bartender in a nightclub. Didn't really drink then, either. I had very little interest in alcohol - it was just a job for me.
The same with weed. First time I was high was also in 2015. Had never tried a joint before that, despite being friends with some pretty serious smokers. It sounds so crazy when I look at it in retrospect. I have spent the vast majority of my life being EXTREMELY sober on all fronts.