A complete revolution's needed. That's a big deal. But, maybe it could be a positive thing. I'm really at the end and I'm starting to think that that's probably not a bad thing. Well why not?
I had 5 days sober - really doing well I thought - and started again tonight. All the common sense doesn't count for anything. That's why I need a life change.
I drink like an alcoholic but I'm not one, I've never had any treatment. Doctors have known about my drinking and I've been referred but haven't gone along. I think it's something I've got to do for myself.
I think what it would take would be to do the mental equivalent of walking naked down the high street. Just to not give a **** anymore. I have to have nothing, get rid of everything, get rid of my whole self and start all over again. Maybe I'm a hologram.