We went out for an ice cream and now I'm in bed with my book. I'm so glad I'm going to bed sober.
It's amazing how my thinking went spiraling down. I was actually working out how I could drink and it would be fine. I convinced myself that I completely overreacted about drinking and that I should just drink on vacation...maybe sometimes when friends come over... back to hungover every weekend.
Lesson for tonight: I don't have to drink, even if I want to.
I will be checking in here as much as possible this week to keep myself from letting that spiraling talk get into my head.
Thanks all!!!