Originally Posted by SparkleKitty

I hear a lot of keeping score here. There are no heroes and no winners when it comes to addiction. The best anyone can ever do is commit to recovery and to try to be the best person they can be.

I know you are hurting. But if you are opening your heart to her again after all the "shrapnel" and abuse you have endured, then that is a choice you make, to put yourself back in the potential line of fire. I have learned that expecting the person who hurts us to be the one that heals us is just propagating an unhealthy cycle. The only person who can heal you is you, and the only one who can heal her is her.