Matt
Lets be straight here. You are as lost as she is. You are as dependent on her as she is alcohol. You both have an addition. If you come to understand that and ACCEPT help you and her might have a chance. If you do not your chances with her or anyone else long term is zero.
This isn't attacking you but letting you know 'a little' might be a whole lot more than you want to accept. If you want things to be like it was, keep it up. Want that blissful marriage, then you WILL have to do something different.
Let Go And Let God. Please explore what that phrase is all about. Baby steps.
Remember that movie, What About Bob... You don't know what you don't know.
There are all these people who care enough to respond. Maybe care enough to take it to heart.
AG