I have had counselling for years and years.
Not recently though.
My family use the 'I don't remember' as a way of dealing with my feelings.
They never change though.
The unfair treatment between me and my sister continues. It never changes.
I thought that they all had really bad memories.
Now I think they may use that as a manipulative strategy.
Instead of remembering or saying sorry, they deny all knowledge.
Unfortunately i have been 'blessed/cursed' with the most amazing memory.
I remember everything. Every cruel thing they did.
We did not speak for almost a year a about 3 years ago.
They promised they would change their ways and I agreed to resume contact.
But it has not lasted. Gradually their behaviour and actions have gone back to how it was.
They are fickle.
Then they use their advancing age as a means to make me feel bad as I have argued with them.
I think I need to find hard evidence to confront them with.
I just feel consumed by it all.
What do I do?
I don't see the point anymore.