J,
You are no longer alone. You both have a ton of "virtual" friends on this forum. We do care about each on this forum. We care about each others "children" and when one of us is facing an illness or surgery. We are all here to support and help each other.
Maybe one day when you are in a good place in your life, you will come back here and root on the next codie that walks in the doors looking for answer on how to get their addict sober, and you can tell them what you did.
Stick around guys, you will be ok, just stick around. Hugs!!