Hi DD931
early recovery is an emotional rollercoaster for most of us - it's our minds and bodies healing - its like we dam up our feelings for so long as drinkers, and now the dam's breaking...
things will settle down - this is not the best recovery gets
Going back to drinking simply means you'd have to do this all over again...don't go backwards.
Have faith - it's a little rough right now, but you are on the right road
D