So you got through? Well done. I is so scary if you are unsure re withdrawal and I guess all I would advise is the Dr if possible. But if your ok today,,,very good.
So I guess let yourself settle and have a think about what triggered you when you feel relaxed and well again. You mentioned feeling ashamed. No shame...really...so many people I know fall and get up and then get well as some point. Most of them are sweet people, they don't need to feel worse that they have already! You have experienced DT of some sort - even the devil would shy away from inflicting that on anyone. Well, hope you keep on feeling better. If you can, find a little support somewhere - you don't have to agree with everything that any particular person says, but a little support can help. I got one on one councelling and that really helped me- each to there own.