Today has been awful
Today has truly scared me.
I never want to feel this bad again. I never want to see or be involved with my family again.
I have had a huge, huge family row and nothing will ever be the same again for me.
I need help with coping with all of this before it makes me seriously ill.
I have cried and cried and I have never felt as outcast as I do now.
I thought I had a handle on this, but I don't anymore.
The years of counselling that I went through to deal with this feels a waste of time, effort and money.
If it was just me, I would leave as fast as I could. Tonight. Vanish without a trace.
I am thinking of leaving but I need to consider everything as I have a daughter who has school and friends.
My thoughts are frightening.
I have never cried as much as I have cried today.
I cannot believe how they have made me feel.
I am defeated by all of them.
They have won. I have lost. Their mission has succeeded.