It's a whole way of life that has to go. Of course it's hard - we've been at it a long time. The lifestyle you describe - yes, we can get away with it for years. I did. My world came crashing down as an older person - I became reckless & desperate. I never imagined I'd allow that to happen, but it did. I could drink a frightening amount in the end, & never feel it - my tolerance was huge. A very bad sign.
Glad you are here .