Hi. I have been trying to sustain my no-contact by distracting myself with audio books (and this forum). Have you read Melodie Beattie's "Codependent No More"? It might be helpful if you had ever lived with a drug addict or been in a relationship to one. Not everything in the book applies to me (Beattie is a former addict), but codies become addicted to their caring role. So it's a type of addiction. Listening to it as an audio book is helpful because it sounds like someone is talking to you, and hearing another person's voice is nice.