Hi, sweetichick.
I can see that you are struggling, and I'm very sorry that you are.
Couple of things: if you truly, absolutely don't want to drink, then you must avoid the pubs.
Huge trigger.
Agree with Anvill, your friend sounds more like a vampire than a friend.
I stopped, started, stopped drinking several times before I finally recognized that drinking is just not in the cards for me.
I couldn't handle it like other people do.
Once I accepted that fact of my life, my way forward became much clearer.
I know you want sobriety.
You can do it, but not without some changes.
Friends, places to go, what you do.
Change that up, which is huge, I know, and things will, I think, be easier.
Peace.