Originally Posted by
snarky 
Sobriety was terrible for me. I hated every second of it. I was to weak to white knuckle it through more than 52 days like you did. I never tried again
There is a saying...when a problem drinker quits drinking, the problems stop. When an alcoholic quits, the problems start.
That's why abstinence from alcohol is rarely enough for the alcoholic. Abstinence without recovery makes for a miserable sobriety, as you've found out.
There are solutions. Hope you find within yourself the strength to leverage them.