Corse, You can overcome your addiction! My, God, you are a runner...you KNOW how to go the distance! This was just a stumble. Get back in the race better and stronger! Your life is important and has meaning so don't even think of ending it. You have so much to share and the stronger you become the more power you have over your addictions. Someone is going to need you to help them along so get yourself together and make your life count.