Snarky,
How are you today?
You said you are "too weak" to quit.. I don't think you're weak! That's the alcohol talking. It actually takes a huge amount of effort to drink and suffer through the hangovers and push through and do what you have to do to get through your days either drunk, planning to drink, recovering from drinking and dealing with the health impacts of all that poison in your system: extra weight, bloating, digestive issues.
You are not weak. But the alcohol is making you so!
Turn it around and think of spending your energy on sobriety and getting healthier. That will help you physically and emotionally. Alcohol not only does a number on our bodies, but on our state of mind. It increases anxiety and depression.
Please let us know how you are doing. You can get off this drinking treadmill and have a better life!
Hugs.