Carlsbrad,
I just want to stop by by and say that there is a way out. Can you talk to your primary doctor and do a safe, home detox? Maybe they could prescribe Librium or whatever to get you through and you could still tend to your business somewhat? I can't imagine you're doing the best job right now. This cannot continue. I am not trying to sound condescending by any means. I was just where you are at a week or two ago, minus the cancer diagnosis (which I am very sorry to hear about, but like others have pointed out, is best faced sober.) I ended up quitting my decent job partway through my bender because I just couldn't face it. I weaned myself very carefully to get off the booze but it was no picnic. I should have been in the hospital. Today is Day 7 of sobriety for me. I truly felt as hopeless and depressed as you when I was still in the grips of the drink. But it's amazing how different I feel today. It's a process no doubt. You can do it. If I can, you can.
