Trying since 2013, so lost
Wow I'm lame. I've been trying on and off for 5 years to quit drinking.
I'll be all motivated, won't lose weight, and go back to it.
I tried AA, didn't like the lectures, and even left here for a year because I felt like I wa being judged and lectured.
I'm looking for a place to help me that won't beat me over the head.
Tough love doesn't work.
It makes me go the opposite way. Makes me even more worthless.
This is a conversation I had with a friend yesterday.
We were talking about why I cannot lose weight.
Friend: You don’t need kitchen devices you need to stop ******* drinking.
Me: It's the only thing that gives me joy
Me: I can hide from how terrible I look and feel.
Friend: Well that’s messed up and makes me sad. You don’t have to hide. Read that back to yourself - it’s the one thing we KNOW is keeping you back from how you WANT to look and feel
I'm just lost. I don't know if I even want to try because when I fail, I'll be lectured. Had anyone ever felt this way?