Hi, lolitalola.
Sorry for your sadness, but glad you are here.
I know it doesn't seem so now, but you have been given a great gift: life without an alcoholic a**hat.
Can you flip the script a bit in your head?
No more drunken shenanigans that you have to clean up. He's some other woman's worry now.
And I bet he picks the young ones because they don't know any better yet.
He's been through several girlfriends since leaving.
Hmmmm.
And...nothing worse than an aging drunk. Health, mental issues. It all gets worse.
Believe me, hard as it is, you are far better off without him.
Not to mention that you are a strong role model for your children, especially your daughter.
Children who grow up in an alcoholic household are deeply affected by it, though we often like to think that they aren't .
Hang in there. Things will get better in time.
Try not to worry about what the future will bring. We can't know.
Believe in yourself.
Peace.