just cant get this whole unpardonable sin thing outta my head, had it for about 3 days now, I done STUPID things when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!
The only unpardonable sin is to not want to be forgiven. I used to have thoughts like that all the time. No one is perfect, and we all fall short and some of us have done horrendous things, drunk or sober. But what I always ask myself is Am I sorry? Do I know what I did was wrong? Did I tell God I was sorry? Would I do the same thing again? God knows our frailty and our heart. Rest easy, friend. It's going to be ok. =)