I'm trying to finish before midnight, about 6 minutes to go. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. Even now, I want so much for tomorrow to be day one, but I don't know if I'll make it. Life has been really hard lately, and I'm drinking to try to make it better, or at least tolerable, but I know drinking isn't helping anything. It's just so hard to stop. So I am really going to try for day one tomorrow. I know I keep letting people down, especially myself. Grateful to SR and everyone here for not giving up on me
