Fearful Frightened as my future in tatters AGAIN
I do not know quite how this goes,but anyway here I am a smelly drunk,my beautiful home trashed,My love wants to leave,Cuts bashes bruises after my latest drink guzzling uncontrolled fest. I want a drink so badly and it's driving me nuts. Can I stop this, I am so desperate. I missed my Fiances sons wedding a very special day I had been looking forward to for months. Fancy,dress, hat everything If I do not get past this quite honestly I'd rather not be around. I have struggled for so long some good stretches of life in recovery kick it all over, my agony when I go out,the looks,the sniggering, alright lush, good party comments. It's endless my nerves are shredded my heart is sick. I need help and lots of it.