Glad your here & posting TO. You are in good company here as we know the struggle. I don't go to AA but understand their are young peoples meetings & if you dont feel comfortable in one meeting, your likely to find one you do feel comfortable in......sounds like some local support would be a good idea. I've been working on getting sober for over 5 years & currenly have 120 some days with many, "I'll never drink agains". I'm feeling hopeful this time with acceptance that alcohol is just not an option for me anymore.....period. When I have those days where it sound like it might be a good idea, I remember it isn't & make not drinking my top priority for that day & at the end of the day if I lay my sober head down, it's been a good day. (Hugs to you....NEVER give up)