This interesting, Chilledice. I would never laugh at your thoughts - it really sounds pretty miserable. So you've just now gotten assessed - and it seems a bit overwhelming right now that you're really going to have to put some work into this. But you don't really even know what that entails yet. I realize that your thoughts are probably telling you to jump ahead in time so you can just get started - just try to tell yourself that you'll get to start learning soon. Take some deep breaths - maybe try to meditate a bit? There are lots of guided meditation apps available out there - There's a simple one called Calm I like for a quick time-out. Might help you get through those thoughts a little better. Just a suggestion. The CBT will be great if you keep at it.