Wildwood
Welcome aboard! Great decision on making a BP! Hope the book arrives soon , in the mean time have you checked out the threads here in SC , the thread in the stickies is a great place to start.
Of course 'never' is going to scare the crap out of the Beast( it is the biggest no-no word it has, "never say never" the mechanics of addiction).
Quitting, never drinking again ever, is the plan and the plan is diametrically opposed to the Beast. The AV ( the doubt in the plan and your ability to remain abstinent is the raison d etre of AV, ITs sole function). The plan is a good one and You Can Do It, another bit of good news is that we only ever exist and operate in the present moment the "Now" . I assume right now , this moment you are not putting alcohol into your mouth and probably even this now, yeah?
We only exist or do Now we dont' 'do' 'forever' all at once, the Nows happen and add up, you can do Now , yeah ? The AV is rattling you by suggesting you are doing 'forever', you aren't because you literally can't , no worries though, Now is totally doable , yeah ?
wish you well and hope to see you around