WELCOME. If I was advising ME..I would say (in hindsight) that firstly STOP DRINKING- NOW! Pour out any stashes. Then GET HELP! Counsellor and a doc for a full check up. THEN I would tell me to go to meetings and that it does not matter if I do not want to- it is free and your learn stuff. Also to journal, remember to eat, rest and hydrate and go for lots of walks.
Support to you.